To Know Me

Depending on your politics, you are either elated or drastically disappointed and upset with the results of Tuesday's election. My cousin said she envied Dave. She said it would be nice to be in heaven and done with all this nonsense. I get that. I often feel the same.

I shared with her the perspective I received from Dave.

Dave had been a news junky, but when he had been told that he had months not years left, he didn't want to spend the rest of the time he had on the negative. We lived in peace and did not watch the news, and we were so much happier for it. He was intentional in appreciating every moment especially the time he had with our kids and grandkids. Every day we thanked God for all of the blessings He had given us. And, oh my were we blessed. We had a beautiful last year together.

It is now just a few weeks from the day Dave left his time on earth and my life changed forever. I miss Dave so very, very much. He was my rock and my best friend. 

I still cry almost every day. I've learned what it is to keen, to mourn and lament loudly with a wordless cry. I still do that privately when I am home alone. But I've found a way not to break out in tears when I am speaking of him with strangers. I do mental math. I'm not quick with mental math so it distracts me and I can manage not becoming a sniveling mess in the aisles of Walmart.

I heard this song, To Know Me by Lauren Daigle yesterday. To know me, you had to know Dave. 

I love you, Dave. Thank you for teaching me how to live gratefully and in light of eternity.